"It was not the end of the world. It was not a death sentence. It was a much deserved beginning."
I can not remember the exact date when I got his diagnosis.
I sat in the cold office, in an unusually clear day, in Hawaii.
Will sat in the waiting room engrossed in his book as usual.
Doctor entered with a thin manila folder and sat across me.
I held my breath fidgeting in my seat.
"You're son has aspergers." Doc said.
My heart sank as I sat there holding back the tears.
I was not surprised at her diagnosis. I expected as much.
There was a name.
I could finally start doing things for him that would make a difference.
I could stop blaming myself because it was not my fault.
I did not know much about the disorder. But it was a start.
I only wished I had the diagnosis earlier because I fear he suffered much due to my ignorance.
With that aside, it turned out to be a very clear day for both of us.
We have been learning, coping, and growing ever since.
About Me
- Asperger_Mom (Chi Yon)
- SAHM of 3 wonderful kids, one brilliant one Asperger Syndrome. This is not a living shrine to his disorder, but rather a place to share & discuss the different challenges that came with it and other things about parenting & life in general.
It is so nice to get a diagnosis to things. It took me forever to find out I had candida. I could of been cured a long time ago.
ReplyDeleteJust be thankful you now know... and DON'T BLAME YOUR NOT KNOWING ON YOURSELF. How long did it take doctors to figure it out? You are not to blame.
I really appreciate this post, and I think I understand what you mean. I know that my experience may not be the same as anyone else, but for me the word "Autism" is an entry word into understanding my child's experience - rather than a limiting label.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your positive and hopeful perspective!
My son is 6 weeks old and my first. I can only imagine, as a parent, what it must be like to experience what you have described. At one time in my life, I spent several months volunteering at the Childrens Hospital of San Diego working with toddlers with autism. It was by far one of the most rewarding times as well. So many of the children left a heavy imprint on my heart and each so very unique. I will never forget the children and some special moments we shared and some small successes along the way. I just starting following your blog after connecting with you on Twitter. I look forward to reading more! God bless you and your family :)
ReplyDeleteDon't let your mind be drawn to regret - it sounds like you're doing great in the moment. :-)
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